23) And I pleaded with YHWH at that time, saying:
24) My Lord YHWH,
you yourself have started to let your servant see your greatness and your strong hand,
that who is a god in heaven and on earth
that can do according to your deeds and according to your power!
25) Pray let me cross over
that I may see the good land
that is in [the country] across the Jordan,
these good highlands, and the Lebanon!
26) But YHWH was cross with me on your account,
and he would not hearken to me;
YHWH said to me:
Enough for you!
Do not speak to me any more again about this matter!
27) Go up to the top of the Pisga [Range]
and lift up your eyes—toward the sea, toward the north, toward the south, and toward sunrise;
see [it] with your eyes,
for you will not cross this Jordan!
28) But command Yehoshua;
make-him-strong, make-him-courageous,
for he will cross over before this people
and he will cause them to inherit the land that you see.
(א) ואתחנן. אין חנון בכל מקום אלא לשון מתנת חנם אף על פי שיש להם לצדיקים לתלות במעשיהם הטובים, אין מבקשים מאת המקום אלא מתנת חנם. לפי שאמר לו (שמות לג, יט) וחנתי את אשר אחן, אמר לו בלשון ואתחנן. דבר אחר זה אחד מעשרה לשונות שנקראת תפלה, כדאיתא בספרי:
(ג) לאמר. זה אחד משלשה מקומות שאמר משה לפני המקום איני מניחך עד שתודיעני אם תעשה שאלתי אם לאו:
(1) "I pleaded..." The word 'pleading' always refers to a freewill gift. Even though the righteous can and should rely on their good deeds, one does not pray to God for anything other than a freewill gift, as God said to Moses in Exodus 33:19, "I shall grace whomever I want." This is the same word as "And I pleaded." Also, this is one of ten terms which denote prayer (as taught in Sifrei).
(3) "Saying" This is one of three places where Moses says to God, 'I won't let you rest until you tell me if you will do what I ask or not."
18) Then he said:
Pray let me see your Glory!
19) He said:
I myself will cause all my Goodliness to pass in front of your face,
and I will call out the name of YHWH
before your face:
that I show-favor to whom I show-favor,
that I show-mercy to whom I show-mercy.
20) But he said:
You cannot see my face,
for no human can see me and live!
עָבַר (v) heb
-
- to pass over or by or through, alienate, bring, carry, do away, take, take away, transgress
- (Qal)
- to pass over, cross, cross over, pass over, march over, overflow, go over
- to pass beyond
- to pass through, traverse
- passers-through (participle)
- to pass through (the parts of victim in covenant)
- to pass along, pass by, overtake and pass, sweep by
- passer-by (participle)
- to be past, be over
- to pass on, go on, pass on before, go in advance of, pass along, travel, advance
- to pass away
- to emigrate, leave (one's territory)
- to vanish
- to perish, cease to exist
- to become invalid, become obsolete (of law, decree)
- to be alienated, pass into other hands
- (Niphal) to be crossed
- (Piel) to impregnate, cause to cross
- (Hiphil)
- to cause to pass over, cause to bring over, cause to cross over, make over to, dedicate, devote
- to cause to pass through
- to cause to pass by or beyond or under, let pass by
- to cause to pass away, cause to take away
- (Hithpael) to pass over
- (Qal)
- to pass over or by or through, alienate, bring, carry, do away, take, take away, transgress
ויתעבר ה' למענכם. מפני שהייתי מתאוה לקיים אתכם בה שלא תגלו ממנה לעולם, והוא כבר נשא ידו לזרותם:
(Devarim 3:26) "And ("yithaber") the L-rd with me because of you (lema'anchem), and He would not hearken to me": R. Eliezer says: He was filled with wrath ("evrah" [like "yithaber"]). R. Yehoshua says: He (the L-rd) became like a woman who could not converse because of her labor.
31) Moshe returned to YHWH and said:
Ah now,
this people has sinned a great sin,
they have made themselves gods of gold!
32) So now,
if you would [only] bear away their sin—!
But if not,
pray blot me out of the record that you have written!
11) Moshe said to YHWH:
Why have you dealt-ill with your servant?
Why have I not found favor in your eyes,
[that you] have placed the burden of this entire people on me?
12) Did I myself conceive this entire people,
or did I myself give birth to it,
that you should say to me,
Carry it in your bosom
as a nursing-parent carries a suckling-child,
to the soil about which you swore to their fathers?
13) From where should I [get] meat to give to this entire people,
when they weep on me, saying:
Give us meat so that we may eat!
14) I am not able, I alone, to carry this entire people,
for it is too heavy for me!
15) If thus you deal with me,
pray kill me, yes, kill me,
if I have found favor in your eyes,
so that I do not have to see my ill-fortune!
(ט) וָאֹמַ֣ר אֲלֵכֶ֔ם בָּעֵ֥ת הַהִ֖וא לֵאמֹ֑ר לֹא־אוּכַ֥ל לְבַדִּ֖י שְׂאֵ֥ת אֶתְכֶֽם׃ (י) יְהֹוָ֥ה אֱלֹהֵיכֶ֖ם הִרְבָּ֣ה אֶתְכֶ֑ם וְהִנְּכֶ֣ם הַיּ֔וֹם כְּכוֹכְבֵ֥י הַשָּׁמַ֖יִם לָרֹֽב׃ (יא) יְהֹוָ֞ה אֱלֹהֵ֣י אֲבֽוֹתֵכֶ֗ם יֹסֵ֧ף עֲלֵיכֶ֛ם כָּכֶ֖ם אֶ֣לֶף פְּעָמִ֑ים וִיבָרֵ֣ךְ אֶתְכֶ֔ם כַּאֲשֶׁ֖ר דִּבֶּ֥ר לָכֶֽם׃ (יב) אֵיכָ֥ה אֶשָּׂ֖א לְבַדִּ֑י טׇרְחֲכֶ֥ם וּמַֽשַּׂאֲכֶ֖ם וְרִֽיבְכֶֽם׃
9)And I said to you at that time, saying:
I am not able, I alone, to carry you;
10) YHWH your God has made-you-many—and here you are today, like the stars in the heavens in abundance!
11) YHWH, the God of your fathers, may he add to you as you are a thousand times,
and bless you, as he promised to you!
12) How can I carry, I alone, your load, your burden, your quarreling?
7) His sister said to Pharaoh’s daughter:
Shall I go and call a nursing woman from the Hebrews for you,
that she may nurse the child for you?
8)Pharaoh’s daughter said to her:
Go!
So the girl went and called the child’s mother.
9)Pharaoh’s daughter said to her:
Have this child go with you and nurse him for me,
and I myself will give you your wages.
So the woman took the child and she nursed him.
10)The child grew, and she brought him to Pharaoh’s daughter,
and he became her son.
She called his name: Moshe/He-Who-Pulls-Out;
she said: For out of the water meshitihu/I-pulled-him.
(11) Now it was some years later, Moshe grew up;
he went out to his brothers and saw their burdens.
And he saw an Egyptian man striking a Hebrew man, [one] of his brothers.
Because You Were an Imposter!!
Moses said to G‑d: Master of the Universe! Joseph’s bones are entering the Land, and I shall not enter?
Said G‑d to him: He who admitted to his land is buried in his land; and he who did not admit to his land shall not be buried in his land. Joseph admitted to his land when his master’s wife said (Genesis 39:14), “See, they have brought us a Hebrew man . . . ,” and he did not deny it; on the contrary, he said (ibid. 40:15), “I was abducted from the land of the Hebrews.” Therefore, he shall be buried in his land. You, however, did not admit to your land when the daughters of Jethro said (Exodus 2:19), “An Egyptian man rescued us from the shepherds,” and you heard this and were silent. Therefore, “you shall not cross this Jordan.” ~Midrash Rabbah
And I pleaded…
By Deborah Masel Miller
Comfort, comfort My crushed, My desolate people; bring them into the room beyond comfort, where I am prayer and I am pain.
Listen Israel as My servant Moses leads you to My crying rooms; hear him plead, Oh Lord open my lips …Lord let me cross over… let my teachings fall like rain…
Generation to generation…Ears that heard God speak from fire now hear His rain fall gently on their future fields.Eyes that saw the mountain burn to the heart of heaven see the goodly land across the river;but no one hears the breaking of a heart; they do not see the face that once saw face to Face look back in wonder and ahead in anguish.
This man Moses, born to be apart, pleading for his people. I will fill the world with prayer, said he upon that other peak, before I let You flood it with Your pain.
You will show mercy upon whom You show mercy, and I shall never know Your ways, yet will I not choose the cloistered Eden-comfort of a drunken Noah, nor will I let You make of me a great nation. Blot me from the book You have written.
I will forge a different comfort. If they would but listen I would teach them the comfort of carving You a highway through the desert stone, of loving You with all their heart and being and might in pain and sickness, in longing and defeat…
O that I had wings like a dove, I would fly away, and be at rest, then I would wander off, I would lodge in the wilderness…I would haste me to a shelter from the stormy wind and tempest…
Enough, said the Lord to His friend Moses. Let your longing be enough; let it hover here upon the blindness of My dark night. Let your longing sing My praise from here, My wounded dove, until your people learn to carry you across upon the eagle’s wings of prayer.
Masel Miller, Deborah. "'And I Pleaded,' Wings of Prayer." Limmud on One Leg.
https://jewschooled.com/2014/08/10/vaetchanan-deuteronomy-323-711/
When I die by Rumi
When I die
When my coffin
is being taken out
You must never think
I am missing this world
Don’t shed any tears
Don’t lament or
Feel sorry
I’m not falling
into a monster’s abyss
When you see
My corpse is being carried
Don’t cry for my leaving
I’m not leaving
I’m arriving at eternal love
When you leave me
in the grave
Don’t say goodbye
Remember a grave is
only a curtain
for the paradise behind
You’ll only see me
Descending into a grave
Now watch me rise
How can there be an end
When the sun sets or
the moon goes down
It looks like the end
It seems like a sunset
But in reality it is a dawn
When the grave locks you up
that is when your soul is freed
Have you ever seen
a seed fallen to earth
not rise with a new life
Why should you doubt the rise
of a seed named human
Have you ever seen
a bucket lowered into a well
coming back empty
Why lament for a soul
When it can come back
like Joseph from the well
When for the last time
you close your mouth
Your words and soul
will belong to the world of
no place no time
https://medium.com/@lordsfantasy/when-i-die-by-rumi-e74612005010
Resources:
Parshat Ve’etchanan: A Rendition of His Own
Episode 177
Dr. Yosefa (Fogel) Wruble with Ilana Kurshan
https://open.spotify.com/episode/2cEPhEb0HGrnOlWLr6Jo0j
No Milk, No Trust
By Beth Kissilef June 12, 2020
https://thelehrhaus.com/timely-thoughts/no-milk-no-trust/